But Maybe...

Have you looked down a path and wondered where it would take you? You could stand where you are and have a million different destinations in your mind, you could be afraid of what you might find if you chose to go that way, or you could end up with the regret of never knowing. There are thinkers, those who regret and dreamers. This path could take you to the most amazing places, happiness, success and love. This path could be everything you've thought and dreamed, or more, an unknown future. You stumbled across this path for a reason, maybe it's an opportunity to find what you've been searching for. It could give you purpose for your life. 

A young man falls in love with a young woman from afar, she is beautiful, elegant and popular among her peers. She speaks her mind and lives her dreams, but he does not. He only watches her, listens to her melodic voice as she speaks to him. He thinks of how to express his love to her, he thinks of what to buy her for valentines, he thinks of how happy he is when he is with her. He doesn't think of the future, he only thinks of now, but the saddest part is that he will never have enough courage to act beyond his thoughts. He is a thinker. 

A young woman breaks up with her boyfriend after months of fighting, she cries every night during and after their relationship but she doesn't move on. All she thinks about now is her life with him, he was a charming, smart and handsome man. He made her laugh and they spent all their time together. But all she thought about was his mistakes and how he never knew how to love her. She doesn't date anyone, she is upset and frustrated all the time, but really she refuses to look forward or not brave enough to because all she's ever known are the regrets. She is one who regrets.

You have always dreamed of becoming someone you are not. You imaging yourself standing at the podium, waving your trophy to the loved ones around you, proud of yourself for working so hard to achieve what you did, you want to look back at your life and say, "Yes, I've come this far." or, "Yes, I deserve this." and you want to look forward and tell everyone that, "Yes, it's possible." You start off with a dream, which becomes an ambition, a drive, a motivation to work as hard as you do. You're happy being single or when you share your life with someone, either way you are happy and the opportunities just continue to arise in your horizon. You dream of what life is like when you are happiest, and all you can think about is that. You are a dreamer.

Maybe you were a man who only thought of her, or you were the woman who only looked back to regret a life of hurt. But maybe you were all of the above, and stumbled unexpectedly across a path and wondered where it would take you...


-JTionowidjaja

I've never been brave enough to share entries like this, but I came across this railyway in Fremantle one afternoon, and all I could think of was something along these lines. Hope you enjoyed something a little different. x

A Fighter

This is the most beautiful 3 month old baby boy is the most precious thing that I have ever encountered. I have never really been able to connect with young ones, maybe they can scare me a little. Without indulging too much about my own personal fears and emotions, we had a small family gathering and I had to try my new Sigma 85mm 1.4 on my little baby cousin. He was so quiet and well behaved, with his eyes he would follow wherever the camera went! A perfect little model, with the cutest face in the world. Thanks to my cousins for letting me take such beautiful photos of their boy. This one's a fighter. 

Photo Literature - Pain

It's been over a year since I got my DSLR, and life has changed since then. I've been blessed with so many opportunities and also given another way to express how I feel. The more experienced I felt with the camera, the more I realised it wasn't about what settings and numbers were correct about a shot, even though it may help to know, it was really the meaning behind a photo and why I had taken it that way. It's all about creativity and what you make out of this art that matters. And this year it has opened my eyes to the possibilities of a new world. I have been unfortunate to come across many deaths in my life this year, and the feeling that you experience with death is like no other. It makes heartbreaks and the little complaints in life, so much smaller. It's definite that you can't compare the type of pain people experience as it's different with everyone. But the pain in losing someone, knowing that you can never talk to them or see them smile or react to your words and actions, is something beyond human understanding.

For those of you who know me, you know it's not like me, to open up and feel vulnerable, I am honestly one of those people who bottle things up until it breaks apart and my poor friends have to pick up the pieces! But, I am one to write things down, or put my thoughts on a photograph, or into a song. Not sure what they call those types of people, but I suppose I am one of them.

I took these three photos and I share them not for sympathy, but for a plea to understand and hopefully hit the same chords with people who are also lost, upset and in pain. And these days, I have taken photos to express how vulnerable I am.

Surrender in Silence - This was one of the most painful photos I took at sunset of the Swan River in Perth, it was quiet, getting dark and cold, but I listened to the waves gently rise and fall it's way onto the reef and sand. Trying to push further up, but pulling away as if in fear.  Surrender yourself to all the pain and suffering.

This was taken quite a while back, and it was taken for my friend who passed away in March this year, I was trying to hold onto the memories we had, looking through the leaves like this gave me hope, and a sense of reassurance that she was there, still full of colour and life. 

This was taken on my iphone4S onto instagram, and I realized how amazing having a camera phone was. The waves symbolize destruction and fear, with unpredictable outcomes to change in directions for the future, but the reflection of the sun made me feel comfort and a sense of hope despite all of this chaos. 

You might feel something completely different here, but that's alright. It's what photos are for. There's just so much freedom in it's meaning here. I used to think that Photography was just putting objects into a still image, and the colours and placement was all you needed for the perfect photo. But I now realise that it's not about that to me. I hope to continue sharing photos with you, and hopefully having the time to describe to you what they mean to me.

Thank you for reading this far, you have no idea how much it means to me that you would stop what you're doing to appreciate my work and my words. I hope they have helped you somehow in what you're going through.

JTionowidjaja Photography

Landscape and Seascape #1

Going back to capturing and appreciating landscapes has never felt this fun and inspiring. There has been a lot happening this year, and these are just a some I've been taking after work.

Sunsets and Silhouette dreams

It's a circle, I mean cycle.

Point Walter

These times will try hard to define me, but I will hold my head up high

Distance

Greatness upon steadiness

I'm searching for the silver lining where You will wrap Your loving arms around me and tell me that everything will be okay, but the reality of fear sets in, the loneliness hits and I helplessly watch the sun descend with a glimpse of hope in the sky, leaving loved ones behind.

Waiting for hope to return

Nightscape

My first Night Scapes shot in Kagoshima, Japan. Taken in April 2012.

An amazing park lit with lights

Light painting of a main road has never been more fun. First one tried on the side of the road.

Almost died taking this shot, dodging cars and trams. 

Taken from my sister's apartment. An amazing view, watching the cars drive by and the lights lit up.